From Here to Health

My journey back from autoimmune disease

The beginning…A very good place to start

on May 12, 2012

Oh how I wish I had started doing this at the beginning!  Nevertheless, I am going to try and go back to where I think this whole journey started using my (these days) less than stellar memory.  This is just one of many areas that has been impacted by my health issues.  My memory just isn’t quite as sharp as it used to be. Although I didn’t know it at the time, I now believe this journey started during my pregnancy with my twins in 2001-2002.  I felt fantastic until about 61/2 months and then it went downhill very quickly.  I developed preeclampsia and my babies (both boys) quit growing.  I was admitted to the hospital at 30 weeks and they were born at 31 weeks via emergency c-section.  It didn’t register with me at the time, but I now believe my body saw this event as a serious trauma.  Obviously, I wouldn’t change anything because the surgery saved the lives of myself and my boys, but I didn’t realize at the time the domino effect this event was going to put in place.  Fast forward 6 weeks and my boys were in the NICU, but doing well. I, however, was very sick with a mysterious virus.  We believe it was West Nile based on my symptoms and my Dr. concurred that it was possible, but for some reason didn’t think it was necessary to test me.  I did recover after about a week, but looking back I realize that after these events my level of vibrancy was slightly diminished.  At the time I attributed it to being a mom to premature twins and all the extra responsibilities that came with it.  Caring for them and pumping breast milk for the first 11 months was pretty all consuming. There is a lot more I could say about being a mom to twins (it’s pretty fantastic!), but since this blog isn’t really about that I am going to try to stick to the topic at hand.  Going forward over the next few years, the symptom I remember most is headaches.  I had pretty bad migraine, cluster, and tension headaches after my boys were born.  I didn’t think all that much about it.  I had CAT scans and saw doctors for it, but just kinda figured that I was prone to headaches and that was that.  Fast forward to Nov. 2003 when I began trying to get pregnant again and more issues come in.  My husband and I conceived our boys on our very first try so I thought getting pregnant again would be no big deal.  Easy peasy, right?  Wrong!  We did get pregnant again (with our beautiful daughter) but it wasn’t until Nov. of 2006.  I tried Clomid.  I had all the invasive tests to look for structural damage and scar tissue.  Apparently nothing was wrong, but I still couldn’t get pregnant. There was obviously some hormonal issues going on that made pregnancy difficult to achieve.  This took a huge emotional toll on me.  I know now that the stress over the fertility issue was another domino in my tumbling health, but once again I didn’t know it at the time.  Back then I mistakenly thought that mind issues were mind issues and body issues were body issues.  I couldn’t have been more wrong.  They are 2 sides of the same coin, ever intertwined and connected.  As I said earlier, I did eventually get pregnant again.  Once again, this pregnancy had difficulties and that is where I will pick up tomorrow.

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