From Here to Health

My journey back from autoimmune disease

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Sleep- Another great night thanks to the fact that my hubby was off for Labor Day. Since he works nights, this meant another night of passing out on his chest.  The real test will be tonight now that he is, sadly, back at work:(

Exercise- CrossFit at 9am.  Warm-up- 400 meter run, stretching, worked on snatch and jump shrugs, worked on plantar fascia with a lacrosse ball.  That hurt.  Apparently, mine are tight!  While the rest of the crew worked on snatch pulls (I think), I worked on overhead squats with a 15 pound bar.  This was the first time I have been able to get my arms overhead without serious pain in weeks, so it was a big moment.  The WOD today was 5 pull ups and 100 meter runs, AMRAP, 10 minutes.  I used a blue band and I got 9 rounds.  Later, I did a 12 minute Bodyrock with Doug and there was a new exercise on there called the Spiderman and it kicked our booties!  While the kids were visiting next door with my parents (yes, my parents live next door and it is fabulous), I did a 25 minute rebounder routine that I found in a magazine and wanted to try out.  I watched a rerun of Mike and Molly which I love.  Melissa McCarthy is so freakin’ awesome! LOVE HER!

Food

Breakfast

2 organic chicken sausages, avocado, sweet potato hash browns

Lunch- Ok, so I didn’t really eat lunch, but is was because I made snacks for the kids for the week and I couldn’t help myself from trying them.  And once I did, I wasn’t hungry for lunch.  Here’s what I made, for the kids of course;)

Banana Nut Muffins with Chocolate chips- made with almond flour and a little honey

Essentially a Paleo Smore

I made a big batch of what essentially is a paleo graham cracker. The recipe is from Eat Like a Dinosaur.  It is made with a combo of coconut flour and almond flour.  I am freezing them so I can have them for when the kids need a “treat”.  I had just enough natural peanut butter left in the jar that I couldn’t help myself from slathering one with it and then popping on a small square of 72% dark chocolate.  It was yummy.  Oh, and the kids liked them too:)

Dinner

Spaghetti Squash with olive oil, garlic and red pepper flakes

I had leftover spaghetti squash so I decided to make a version of a recipe in Well Fed.  I just sauteed garlic and red pepper flakes in olive oil then added some salt, pepper and parsley.  When it was done I topped it with the almond flour crumbs that had been toasted in coconut oil.  And for extra decadence I threw on some grass-fed cheese.  It was super simple and good.

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Sleep- Another night of falling asleep drooling on my husband’s chest.  Sexy, right?  I know that is what all guys are looking for:))  So maybe not sexy, but a peaceful and safe way to fall asleep in my opinion.  Again, slept until almost 8:00.  Pretty awesome!

Exercise- No 9am CrossFit because of Labor Day.   Doug and I went for a 5k run instead.  Clocked in at 33 minutes exactly.  My goal is to be able to do it in 30 minutes, but I’m not in a big hurry to get there.  Today I just wanted to enjoy the run with my husband.  Around 5:00pm we did a 12 minute Bodyrock workout that was pretty tough.

Food

Breakfast

2 egg omelet with spinach, red peppers, cheese and sausage; organic strawberries

Very weird picture, but it really is and omelet.  Some of the sausage was just piled on top.  Doug made these for us after our run.

Lunch

Organic apple with sunflowerseed butter

Breakfast was really filling and kinda late so I wasn’t super hungry at lunch.

Snack

Mini DQ Reese’s Blizzard- 1/2 Empty

So I promised my daughter ice cream if she did well getting her picture made today.  Parker aka “Booger Mustache” is also a professional photographer so he came back today to get some shots of Finn.  She insists that she wants to be on TV so she has an audition with a casting agency on Saturday.  We have to bring some non-returnable photos to give them so Parker is helping us out.  Back to the snack, all the kids and Parker had a dip cone, but I got a mini Reese’s blizzard and just had half.  As soon as the really good bites were gone, I chunked it.

Dinner

Thai Hot Plate from Well Fed

Once again I thought this was delish, but the kids wouldn’t touch it this go around.  My boys have gotten crazy picky over the last week.  One of my sons ate nothing today except the dip cone.  He now claims he doesn’t like eggs or sausage so breakfast was out.  At lunch he claimed not to be hungry, but since he didn’t eat breakfast I don’t know how that is possible.  At dinner he said he was hungry but took one look and decided he would rather go to bed.  Oh well, I don’t fix “extra” meals.  You get what you get at our house.  Here’s hoping he doesn’t starve!

 

 

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Sleep– Fell asleep really easily lying on my husband’s chest watching Downton Abbey.  Alas, he wanted to get up and work on the computer for a while and that woke me up.  So I dozed off and on until he came back to bed, then read for a while, then went back to sleep until 8:00am.  I prefer sleeping all the way through the night, but at no point did I feel exhausted or stressed over being awake.  I take that as a small victory.

Exercise- Rest day.  Doug and I did take a walk around Shelby Farms in the afternoon. 2.88 miles

Food- “Todd and Summer” and the baby are in town and it is “Todd’s” birthday, 31 years.  I mention this to let you know in advance that we ate with family all day and in a celebratory manner.  I enjoyed all the food, and no guilt, but I did end the day with some indigestion.

Breakfast

Veggie Scramble, Avocado, 1 Turkey Sausage, Organic Strawberries

Lunch

Organic Mixed Green, Roast Chicken, Avocado, Mango Salsa, BBQ Sauce, Toasted Almonds

Ok, so breakfast and lunch really weren’t too bad.  The BBQ sauce was a little sweet but other than that it was good.  I neglected to get a picture of our birthday dessert.  My brother has always had a thing for mint chocolate anything.  So…I made him gluten free chocolate brownies with Andes mints in the middle.  We had these warm from the oven topped with deluxe mint chip ice cream with fudge swirl and mint cups.  Then it was topped with chopped gluten free oreos and hot fudge.  I didn’t have a giant portion, but it was rich.  Still, I didn’t feel too bad after that.  It was dinner that got me.  Once again, I didn’t get a picture.  And really, I don’t know why it bothered me so much.  We essentially had a taco/nacho bar.  I had a small portion of organic corn tortilla chips with seasoned organic beef, colby jack cheese, salsa and homemade guacamole.  I don’t know if it was the chips, the cheese or just too much food in general today, but my stomach felt all jacked up by  the time I was done eating.  It hung on until the morning:(

We spent a lot of time just hanging out and visiting with family and friends.  This is my daughter Finn curled up with my brother’s best friend, Parker, whom she affectionately calls Booger Mustache.

Parker & Finn

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Sleep- Slept from 10:30 to 7:30 except for the few minutes when Jesus woke me up around 3:45.  And yes, you read that right.  Jesus spoke to me last night and woke me up.  I was having a dream in which I was speaking to my grandfather who is very ill.  The relationship is very strained and he does not know my kids because of it (his choice, not mine).  In the dream, I come to my grandfather (I am leaving out other details that I do think have meaning, but I’m just going to cut to the Jesus part) and he says, “So tell me about those boys.”  And I say, “They are loving, sweet, so smart and they show Jesus to people every day.”  And what really seemed like an audible voice says in my ear (loud enough to wake me up) “So do you.”  My husband works night, no one else was around.  I am convinced it was Jesus.  I am always so quick to see the good in my kids or my friends.  I always encourage others to tap into the divinity in themselves.  But often when it comes to looking at myself, I am a very harsh and judgmental critic.  I’m taking this as a sign to love myself and own my own little piece of the divine.  It will be a journey, but I am going to pray that Jesus continues to reveal himself to me.

Exercise-CrossFit at 9am.  Still can’t lift, but I did the warm-up- 300 jump ropes, 10-15-10 pull ups (blue and red band), 30 push ups (I started these and then my trainer said NO), fascia stretches for the achilles tendon. During the lift I did squats and sit ups.  The WOD had to be modified – 10 pull ups, 5 knees to elbows, 7 one leg elevated squats (each leg) 5 rounds.  My time was 8:40.  At around 5:30 I did 24 minutes of Bodyrock with Doug.  No weights, just cardio/bodyweight stuff.

Food-

Breakfast

Leftover Hot Plate with a scrambled egg

Lunch

Chick-fil-A 6 pack grilled nuggets kids’ meal w/unsweet tea

Alright, not paleo.  But it was worth it to share lunch and shopping with these 2 sweet faces.

Cooper enjoying fried rice and honey chicken at the mall

Presley doing the exact same thing. Go figure, twins!

Dinner

organic apple, sunflower seed butter, grass-fed cheese

Wasn’t super hungry and didn’t feel like cooking.

Snack- I made some Zucchini Bread from Eat Like a Dinosaur and I had a slice fresh from the oven.  Will try to post a picture tomorrow.

 

 

 

 

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Sorry I have been a little remiss about posting.  This lack of sleep thing has gotten my schedule all out of whack.  Last night I slept from 3am to 7am.  Honestly, not as bad as some nights but certainly not great.  I spent the first half of the night trying to cast out demons in Jesus’ name.  Some of you might think that is a little whacky, but I happen to believe that angels and demons are real and that we are in a time of change on the planet right now and these “other beings” are very active.  I believe it is Biblical.  Anyway, I believe (and have had confirmation from others) that I am highly sensitive to different energies.  I think a lot of what is going on with me has to do with the shifting energies on our planet.  How weird do you guys think I am now? 🙂  I will keep you posted about developments in this area.

As for exercise, it was a rest day from CrossFit, but I did run 3 miles on the treadmill.  29:46

Food

Breakfast- scrambled eggs and 1 nitrite free sausage patty

Lunch- It was Finn’s first day of Homeschool Mother’s Day Out and I did some errands and shopping sans children. Woo Hoo!  Time really got away from me and before I knew it, it was 2:00!  Chipotle is very near her school, so I stopped in there and got my usual salad- lettuce, grilled veggies, pork, pico, salsa and guacamole. Yummy!

Finn waiting at the door to leave for “school”

Dinner- I can’t get enough of this particular Middle Eastern Hot Plate from Well Fed.

Steamy Red Cabbage with onion, garlic, spices

Added in the garlic browned grass-fed beef

Added spaghetti squash and parsley to finish

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Sleep- Hallelujah! Hallelujah!  I slept for 9  hours!  It’s about time since for the past seven nights I probably haven’t gotten 9 hours total!  Now I feel like I can return to the land of the living and get back to blogging. My daughter didn’t even get up last night. No spider nightmares!  Totally praying this continues.  I am a much more effective mother, wife, coach, human being, etc. when I have had a good nights’ sleep.

Exercise- CrossFit at 9am.  My shoulder is much better, but my trainer has told me no lifting for the next 2 weeks.  I did some stretching then I did 50 ring pull ups.  The WOD today was wall balls and burpees.  I felt like I could do burpees, but trainer said no, so my WOD was 15 Wall Ball Touches (10# ball) with a squat and then 7 jump squats for 10 minutes.  I got 11 rounds.  At 5pm I did a 12 minute Bodyrock workout with Doug and then a 3 minute Bodyrock Ab Bonus.  Also 10 minutes on the rebounder.  I am planning on doing some stretching before bed, but as it is only 7:30, that remains to be seen.

Food- Let me just say that my food choices may be a little random since payday is Friday and we are basically out of food.  I am trying to make do with what we have which isn’t easy.

Breakfast

Sweet potato hashbrowns, 1 nitrate free sausage patty, 1/2 small avocado

Lunch

More sweet potato hashbrown, cauliflower “mashed potatoes”, organic frozen wild blueberries, peanut butter on gluten free crackers

Sorry for the fuzzy picture.  The cauliflower is from Well Fed and I thought it was awesome!

Dinner

Wild Alaskan Salmon Cakes and Organic Broccoli with Grass-Fed Butter

LOVE me some grass-fed butter.  Everything is better with just a little bit:))

 

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Shoulder and Attitude Readjustment

So I didn’t post yesterday because I had a crappy day and I was exhausted!  I mentioned before that I have been nursing some injuries.  Well, the hip injury seems much better, so yeah!!  But my left shoulder, oh, my left shoulder!  I didn’t sleep night before last and I didn’t sleep again last night.  That is not entirely true.  I think I drifted off around 4:30am and got up at 6am, but I wasn’t even asleep that entire time.  And the night before, I did drift off at some point because I dreamed that my shoulder was hurting so bad that I was crying and I awoke to find that I was really crying.  It hurts that bad. It has been at least a week since I have had a decent night’s sleep.  I have found myself in a little bit of a pity party because of it.  I haven’t been to CrossFit since Tuesday and that has got me in a funk too.  I thought that resting was the way to go, but the less I move, the stiffer my shoulder gets and the more it hurts.  It hurts so bad at night that I can’t sleep and then I don’t feel like being super active the next day because I am exhausted.  I can tell that the lack of sleep over the last week has gotten my immune system down.  I have a sore throat and some nasal issues.  Along with some pain related to my Sjodgren’s. And some inflammation in my gums.  I haven’t spoken about my health issues much over the past couple of months because I don’t really like to keep those labels active in my mind.  However, when things like lack of sleep rear their ugly head, some of  my all-too-familiar symptoms come back.  I am trying to keep my mind in a good space, but the lack of sleep seems to impair my ability to think clearly.  All I really know to do is to pray that tonight I get a good night’s sleep because the longer I go without sleep the deeper this pit is that I have to dig myself out of.

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Sleep- The absolute pits!  It took me forever to fall asleep and then I never felt like I got into a very deep sleep.  Finn came in twice so that certainly didn’t help things.  Strongly believing for a great night tonight:))

Exercise- CrossFit at 9am.  Didn’t feel my best due to lack of sleep, but I muscled through it anyway.  Warm-up- 500 meter row, 7-9-11-9-7 chin up (blue and red band), 15-20-15 push ups (on knees), then some stretches with the lacrosse balls.  Lift- Tall cleans (?) I think that is right, but not sure.  I decided because I am now nursing a couple of lift related injuries that I am going to step down my weight a lot and really focus on form.  I have a tendency to go all or nothing and most of the time that hasn’t served me well.  I have learned over the years that sometimes it is just fun to play.  I feel like I have to treat this like a marathon, not a sprint.  I still want to be able to do this years from now.  Point is, don’t be expecting a lot of big numbers on my lifts for a while:)) I practiced today using a 15# bar.  I did more reps than required and just worked on form.  We also worked on power cleans.  WOD- It was supposed to be overhead squats, but because of my shoulder I had to do backsquat (65#).  3 backsquats, 7 burpees, 7 or 8 rounds (I forgot). My time was 10:42.

Then I also did a 12 minute Bodyrock circuit with Doug around 5pm.

Food

Breakfast

Last Night’s Leftover Thai Hot Plate- Still Delicious

Lunch

Tuna salad, avocado, veggie chips, organic berries

Snack

Slice of Banana Chocolate Chip Bread with Grass-fed Butter

Dinner

 

Eastern European Hot Plate from Well Fed

This is the same one I made last week.  You can’t really see the purple cabbage, spaghetti squash and parsley.  It looks like a big bowl of meat, but it really is mostly veggies.

 

Dinner

 

 

 

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Weight- 123.6  A small loss, but I’ll take it:))

Sleep- I am having some issues with this so I feel the need to see if I can decipher what is going on here.  I’ve had off and on issues since my daughter was born, but then they became severe last December.  I started some supplements for it and they helped.  Even after I came off the supplements I was still doing pretty well.  However, since our trip to Florida I have been struggling a little more to get to sleep.  Last night I could hear my heart beating pretty hard in my ears and that kept me awake for a while.  I try not to look at the clock because I tend to get a little obsessed, but if I had to guess, I would say I fell asleep sometime around 1am (even though I turned the light out at 10:45) and got up when my 4 year old came in at 6:47am.  Not enough for this mama!

Exercise- 30 mins on rebounder, 10 mins yoga, and 75 weighted squats, 75 push-ups (girl kind-I wasn’t feelin’ it this morning), 75 Bent-over Rows w/sandbag, 30 Bicycle Abs

Food-

Breakfast-1 slice fresh pineapple, 1 egg scrambled with 2tsps coconut oil and 1 cup spinach, 1/2 cup soup-  My husband made this incredible soup for the kids last night, but he put rice in it.  He left me out a serving before adding the rice and I didn’t feel like eating it last night (bad tummy) so I had soup for breakfast.  Very paleo;))

Lunch- Had lunch with a dear girlfriend. We ate at Rafferty’s because she is obsessed with all things carbs and wanted my croissant.  I had a small Frisco salad- lettuce, tomato, cheese, artichoke, egg, potato sticks, vinaigrette

Note- About 2 hours after lunch- felt pretty nauseated

Snack- 1/2 cup organic raspberries, handful of marcona almonds, 2 oz Dubliner cheese

Note- Nausea went away after I ate, but came back again about 2 hours later???  Also pain in mid-back? Oh wait, seriously as I was writing this I just “let one fly” and my back is completely better (ok, it was more than 1).  Man, gas can hurt like a mutha!

Dinner- slice of pineapple, protein shake (same one I always make)

It is 6:56 pm and I am calling it a night.  Putting my daughter to bed early and I am snuggling up with my Netflix and some Downton Abbey!  I just started that show last weekend.  I am only on episode 3, but I am loving it!  My husband and I love us some British period pieces!  Plus, my health coach said I needed more rest and relaxation so I think this qualifies.  Talk to you guys tomorrow.

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More Health History

I think we left off with the breast infections, over use of antibiotics, and crazy viruses.  I think I failed to mention that during the whole fiasco with the breast infections, I was experiencing terrible yeast infections in my milk ducts.  The yeast was growing due to the antibiotics.  It was a vicious cycle of  staph infection…antibiotics….yeast infection….nipples more prone to cracking/bleeding….that made me more susceptible to another infection….and the cycle would start over again.  I ran this cycle 3 times before I ended up giving up the nursing.  This was all in 2008.  I have had issues with systemic yeast until about a month ago!  I truly believe that all my Candida issues stem from these incidents in 2008.  I think I may finally have them under control, but it still may be too soon to tell.

So, I quit nursing and things did get better.  For a while.  Fast forward to Thanksgiving Day 2009.  This is where, at the time, I thought all my health issues started.  In hindsight, I know that all these past issues were setting me up for a body way out of balance.  Anyway, on Thanksgiving Day 2009, I got this really weird pain in the back of my right calf.  It felt like someone had popped me really hard with a rubber band.  It surprised me so much that it literally took me down to the floor.  It quit hurting after about 15-20 minutes, but I spent most of the remainder of the day sitting down with my legs elevated.  Like I said, the pain went away, but I had this nagging feeling that something wasn’t right.  Nevertheless, it didn’t happen again that day and the next day was business as usual.  Just to fill you in on what “usual” was at that time, I will give you a brief synopsis of what was going on in my life at the time.

In 2009, I was a full time, homeschooling mom.  I had twin boys who were 7 and a daughter who was 2 (and a royal handful).  I was getting my Master’s degree in Social Work.  I had just gotten certified to teach Zumba and had a couple of classes that I was trying to choreograph routines for. I was an actor in our church’s children’s program on most Sundays.  I was cooking 3 meals a day for my family and my parents who live next door.  Throw in housework, homework, laundry, grocery shopping, pets, kids activities, paying bills….and you get the picture.  My darling husband has always been lots of help and was during that time as well, but he was working (and still is) nights.  It meant he wasn’t hear for much of this and if he was, he was often asleep.

Ok, so now that you have an idea of  what my days were like, we can continue.  The weird pain goes away until one day in December 2009, and it takes me down again as I am making my daughter’s bed.  This time I can’t shake it.  I start looking for answers.  I do some internet research and talk to a few of my nurse friends.  Everyone is confounded.  No answers.  Fast forward to February 2010 when I have a new symptom.  I was sitting in a lecture for school when my ears start ringing.  I mean loudly ringing.  I can hardly hear the lecture.  It wouldn’t go away.  This actually persisted for much of 2010.  It nearly made me insane.  I couldn’t sleep.  I couldn’t focus on anything.  I tried white noise machines.  I tried ear plugs. I tried keeping my iPod going 24/7.  Nothing worked.  I hadn’t slept through the night since my daughter was born, but this was an all-time low for my sleep habits.  I would sometimes go a week with no sleep at all!  There were nights when I was awake all night and I would really think…”They are going to have to commit me.  I cannot go on like this.  I am losing my mind.  Please just give me some drug that will make it all go away.”  Lack  of sleep will really mess with your mind.

During the day, I did my thing where I pull myself up by my boot straps just like I did with the nursing. Keep on going.  No breaks.  I didn’t do breaks.  During this time I was still experiencing my stomach issues.  I had nearly constant bloating, gas and cramps.  I had been to the dr., but never any answers.  I had a colonoscopy.  Nothing.  I had blood tests.  Nothing.  I had a lactose intolerance breath test.  Nothing.  The doctors continued to say I had IBS.  While I know some people might not agree, I think IBS is the blanket term for “we just don’t know what’s wrong.”  I knew there was some underlying issue at play here and I was determined to find out what it was.

In April of 2010, I had another new symptom.  My arms and legs began to hurt.  It was sporadic at first, but by June 2010, it was near constant.  It was a pain that was dull, yet pervasive.  It would ache up the inside of my arms and in my calves, sometimes radiating to my thighs.  All during this time, I was pumping my nurse friends for answers.  They agreed that something wasn’t right, but we weren’t getting to the bottom of it.  I went to an ear/nose/throat doctor to check my ears.  They said my hearing was off the charts.  I was hearing noises that no one hears.  My hearing had somehow gotten so sensitive that I could hear the electricity running to nearly anything in the house.  Even when it wasn’t on!  There were times when I didn’t know if the sound was in my head or outside my head.  My test was sticking my fingers in my ears and then seeing if I could still hear the noise.  If yes, then it was the ringing in my head.  Anyway, the ENT doctor said that I was fine.  I just needed some anxiety meds.  I was devastated.  She barely knew me.  I will be the first to admit that I have some anxiety issues.  I own that.  But much of my anxiety at the time was caused by the physical issues.  It was a vicious cycle.  I absolutely believe that my emotional issues played a role in getting me to this spot.  However, my physical issues had gotten to the point where an anxiety med just wasn’t going to do the trick.  They needed to be addressed from a physical standpoint as well.

Fast forward to August 2010.  I am in constant pain, I can’t sleep, my stomach hurts no matter what I eat, I have my same old chronic headaches…things are rough.  I am dejected because despite going to the cardiologist, internist, gynecologist, gastroenterologist, and otolaryngologist, I have no answers.  Alas, I have one more doctor to try.  The Rheumatologist.  This turned out to be the beginning of my answers.

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