From Here to Health

My journey back from autoimmune disease

Fat Loss Protocol

Doug ( that is the hubby) and I are attempting a paleo fat loss protocol that was designed by Jason Seib.  If you don’t know who Jason is, he is the other half of the Everyday Paleo team with Sarah Fragoso.  I have been listening to their podcast for about a year and while Jason does come off as a little gruff sometimes, I think he knows his stuff.  And I believe he cares about the success of his clients.  So when I read this post he wrote about fat loss. I was intrigued.  I have known for a while there was something missing with me and the weight loss/fat loss thing.  I just have not been able to get the equation right!  I’ve tried CrossFit, calorie cutting, zero carb, 21-day sugar detox, and just simply going paleo.  None of those things have resulted in any sustainable fat loss.  I was hopeful when I started reading the post that there would be something “new” in it.  And there was!!  Two things to be exact.  He addresses the two issues that I think are my main obstacles.  Stress and carbs.  I feel certain that stress is part of why I hold onto fat.  I can go on vacation and lose 4 pounds in a week eating out, drinking alcohol and having ice cream every night!  I know this has something to do with stress.  It has to.  Jason addresses this through meditation.  Meditation is something I have long been intrigued by but have never truly given any sort of real commitment.  The other thing that sold me on giving this a try was carb cycling.  In the post he recommends Keifer’s CarbNite program (which we intend to buy).  On the surface I would say this looks gimmicky, EXCEPT….Doug and I have observed and discussed this exact phenomenon happening with my weight.  I will try to “diet” for a while, not lose weight, then decide “Screw it, I’m having some cookies!” and BAM…I’ve lost 3 pounds!  We have both shaken our heads at this outcome.  I think my body is really sensitive to the cycle of carbs and that there is a chance that this plan might work well for me.

September is Month 1 for us and that means 3 things according to Jason:

1. Perfect Paleo

2. Lots of walking

3. Sleep, Sleep, Sleep

I have been paleo for over 2 years.  I don’t know about the “perfect” part, but I am pretty dialed in.  I will admit that I am eating some “paleo treats” right now.  Not much, just enough to taste for recipes that I am developing for the blog.  Yay!  So if this plan isn’t working I will know the first thing that needs to happen is cutting those bites out!

My walking is pretty good.  I walk for 45 minutes 6-7 mornings before the kids get up.  Then I walk again for an hour most nights.  I do this either during Finn’s dance, gymnastics or soccer.  Or I just slip out after dinner and troll the neighborhood.

And my sleep is better than it has been since I had my daughter 6 years ago.  I go to sleep between 10-11.  I try for closer to 10, but sometimes I get a little carried away with whatever I am currently reading and the time slips away from me:) I wake up sometime in the 6:00 hour.  I wish I could sleep later sometimes, but I seem to have a very strong natural clock.  We have black out shades in our bedroom because Doug sleeps during the day, but I still can’t sleep much past 6:00.

So there you have it.  I will give you guys monthly updates on Doug and myself and let you know what our results are and how we feel about the program.

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ED Day 15

I was really hoping to drop a couple more pounds this second week, but it was a no go.  I weigh exactly what I did 1 week ago.  I know, I know, this is not about weight loss per se.  I just got my hopes up with the 6 pounds in week 1.  And even though it is not about weight loss, resistance to fat/weight loss is one of my issues that I was hoping to help resolve by figuring out what foods agree with me.


I was in a hurry before church and I am still really low on food so I had 3 oz. of wild caught tuna (canned), olive oil and carrot puree.


Pulled pork, garlic olive oil, green beans with lemon olive oil



I had the rest of the leftover pork, olive oil green beans.  Thrilling!


I was still a little sleepy.  Not sure if this is delayed carb flu or something else.  I also just felt kinda blah and full even though I didn’t eat all that much.

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ED Day 9

Finn made me breakfast in bed this morning.  She didn’t get to be very creative since my diet is so limited, but she didn’t seem to care.  It was the standard turkey and spinach with chives and a drizzle of garlic oil.  It was especially good since I didn’t have to make it myself.  I look a little naked in the picture below because I am.  Finn had told me not to get out of bed, but I snuck out and took a walk before she got up.  When she came in to “surprise” me I was quickly trying to change back into my jammies but didn’t have time and just jumped under the covers to feign my surprise;)  It’s not indecent right?  Just pretend I am wearing a strapless dress to bed.  So sweet that my daughter now to serve my food with digestive enzymes:)  Actually Finn is only wearing her undies and an apron so maybe it just runs in the family;)

IMG_2546 Lunch

More turkey and spinach, like you couldn’t have guessed!



Carrot puree and zucchini


I only had carrot and zucchini at dinner because I still felt full from lunch.  I think it was because I am still constipated.  It’s not that I am not going at all, but it is not often enough and too difficult to go.  Other than that, I still have some pain in my left calf and my itchy bumps.  BUT…I lost 6 pounds in the first 8 days!!!  Yay!!! I truly was not doing this to lose weight, but I was hopeful that eliminating some problematic foods would reduce my inflammation and help me shed a little weight.  I am hopeful that is what is happening.  I don’t really feel like I am eating a ton fewer calories.  I am eating 900 calories of fat a day without even considering the veggies or protein so I figure it has to be somewhere in the neighborhood of 1600 calories. Plus I am not working out as hard.  I am walking and doing some very low-key bodyweight stuff for like 10 minutes most days.  That’s it.  Hopefully the trend will continue and I can drop more of these unwanted pounds:)


Autoimmune Skinny Paleo Plan

So I started a new weight loss plan today.  Story of my life. I have struggled with weight since 6th grade.  Or at least body image.  As a 35 year old woman, I now realize I never had a true “weight” issue.  My body image issue, however, has been a very real issue for over 20 years.  I can’t remember if I have written about this on the blog before (I can’t remember a lot of things these days), but I I have, my apologies.  To be succint with a 20 year story…it all started at a school fitness day.  Remember those President’s fitness tests?  Well, we had one in 6th grade and we all had to weigh in front of each other- something I am sure wouldn’t happen these days- and I weighed 104 pounds.  Someone watching said, “Oh my God, she weighs more than a hundred pounds!”  Well, my child’s mind immediately thought, “Over 100 pounds is too much!”  Mind you, I was the same height I am now, so 104 pounds was definitely not too big.  That is what got the ball rolling and add to that the careless comments by other friends, media and social pressure and my own need for perfection and you have a recipe for disaster.  I was anorexic, bulimic, an overexerciser, diet pill user and consumer of all types of weight loss products.  I even did Zerona a few years back (which sent me into huge flares with my autoimmune disease and didn’t even work). I have no doubt that the physical and mental stress of my “eating issues” played a very significant role in the evolution of my autoimmune and other health issues.

Back to the present…when I went Paleo nearly 2 years ago, I thought my “weight issues” would be solved.  You hear all these magical stories.  I thought I would automatically find my “happy weight.”  THIS DID NOT HAPPEN.  In fact, I have gradually put on 20 pounds after going Paleo.  Yes, you read that right, I put on 20 pounds after going Paleo. Am I the only one???  About mid-way through this journey, I found out that I was hypothyroid.  So I thought, ok, that is the problem.  Surely, once that is worked out, the weight will fall off.  After multiple medications, I have finally found one that I can tolerate with out insomnia and heart palpitations (Westhroid) and my thyroid is improving, but still no weight loss.  So, this past Sunday it all came to a head and I had what my Dad call a “come apart.”  Ok, who am I kidding? I had a giant, f- bomb dropping, crying on the bathroom floor, dry heaving nuclear meltdown!  My sweet kids wanted me to go watch them launch the rocket they had made and I LITERALLY could not fit into anything that wasn’t pjs.  I had this vision of more nights crying on the floor between the toilet and the wall as my family and friends went out and lived their lives. I don’t want that!  So my plan? Well, it’s going to sounds a little (or maybe a lot) crazy, but here it is…I am doing Bob Harper’s Jumpstart to Skinny for the next 21 days.  With modifications.  I have made it autoimmune paleo friendly.  People in the paleo community don’t often talk about it, but I still think that calories count to a certain extent. I am working under the assumption that even though my food is super clean, it is still too many calories for my small, not quite 5 ft 2 in frame.  So I used Bob’s calorie restricted recipes but made substitutions for things that were not Paleo.  I then further adjusted it to make it autoimmune friendly and low-FODMAP.  Yes, this means it is very restrictive and will be very repetitive.  But I just need to see if the problem really is that I am unwittingly taking in too much food.  My only other theory is that due to my health issues, my body is still holding onto a lot of inflammation that is causing me to gain/resist losing weight.  In that case, I guess I just have to be patient and pray for money to buy a new wardrobe.  I’ll post once a week to let you guys know how my experiment is going.


The Virgin Diet

So based on a recommendation from a dear friend and health coach, I am going to do the Virgin Diet.  I have known for 2 years that I have a gluten allergy, but I have a strong feeling that I have other intolerances as well.  The plan calls for a 21 day elimination cycle and then a systematic reintroduction of the possibly offending foods.  Because of the holiday season and travel I am not going to start in earnest until December 26th.  That would put my finishing the elimination cycle on January 15th.  However, I am going to start the breakfast shake component tomorrow.  I am also going to try to eat the appropriate foods most meals until then, but I know I can’t be 100% until after Christmas so I don’t want to set myself up to fail!  Even though I am not really doing this to lose weight (although I could stand to drop a few) I will probably post a before and after weight just for the heck of it.  I know there are foods that aggravate my autoimmune conditions and I suspect they are dairy and eggs.  This program will give me some guidance for figuring that out.  My intent is to make short daily posts through this process about what is working, what is tough and just how I feel in general.

The 7 foods that I will be eliminating are:

1. gluten

2. corn

3. soy

4. sugar and artificial sweeteners

5. eggs

6. dairy

7. peanuts

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Another Weigh In

So I am officially down 3 pounds!  125!  No major changes, just trying to be intentional about what I want.  That includes my food.  I haven’t really changed what I eat, but I think I may be eating slightly less because I am more focused.  I think I am eating less off my kids plates and not eating the bits that are still in the pan right before I wash dishes.  Please tell me someone else does this!  I hope I am not the only one.  Only, I’m not doing it now and I think those little things add up.  They don’t really add anything to my nourishment or my pleasure, so why do them?

On another note, I went to see a dermatologist today.  I have had some places on my skin that came up when I was really sick with vasculitis 2 years ago and I really want them gone.  Nobody ever sees them but me (and my hubby sometimes, but he doesn’t care).  But, they remind me of being sick.  So I went to see her thinking that having them removed was probably out of the question because of money.  And here is what she said.  She said she has a laser that can take them right off AND that she can remove my spider veins (from pregnancy) all at the same time.  She said it would take 30 minutes and $350.  I said, “Sign me up.”  I have an appointment on the 18th and I will be so happy to have these things gone!   Say a prayer that all will go well.  I will keep you posted on the results.  I’ll even try to take some before and afters.

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Weigh In

So we prayed this week that I would weigh in at 125.8 pounds today.  Hopped on the scale and I weighed 125.6!!! It seems unbelievably simple, but changing my mind and praying are the only two things I have done differently.  When we started to pray about it together and I got honest about what I wanted and why, it changed my attitude and my outlook.  I believe that our thoughts have energy and changing my thoughts is affecting my body down to the cellular level.  I was eating right and exercising already.  To be honest, I am old hat at that.  I have had that down for a while.  Years, maybe.  But for some reason I have continued to hold on to some kind of fear.  Fear that I couldn’t succeed.  Fear that if I shined too brightly people wouldn’t like me.  I read a quote from Marianne Williamson the other day that I loved and what she said (among other things) was that by shining brightly, you don’t outshine others, you give them permission to do the same.  I LOVED that!  I love the idea that my being a bright light in this world allows someone else to let their light shine a little brighter.   That is how I am choosing to look at it now.  I want my decisions to be dictated by love and not fear.


Just as a side note, it has been an extremely crazy day.  My husband had emergency oral surgery for an abscess and my daughter has lice again!  She has a photo shoot with a photographer from L.A. on Saturday and I can’t seem to get rid of the nits in her hair!!  Arghhh!! Most of the nits are dead, but it makes me crazy picking them out of her long hair.  Her hair is so fine that they just don’t come out with the comb.  My darling husband has said he will spend his whole day tomorrow picking nits while he is numbed up on Oxycodone.  Gotta love him.

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First Weigh In

On  Friday I weighed 128 pounds.  I set my intention to weigh 126.6 by Monday morning.  I worked out as usual.  I ate as usual.  The only real differences were that I was more mindful of how my mind was  feeling and  how my body was feeling.  AND, Doug and I prayed twice a day a very specific prayer that God would help my body and my mind let go of excess weight and harmful thoughts.  I got up Monday morning and the scale said 126.4! Not only did I meet my goal, but God did me one better by exceeding it.  My next weigh in is on Thursday so I will check in with you guys then.

In other news, I am now the social director for my CrossFit gym.  A glamorous, unpaid position that I am hoping to turn into a discount if the parties go well.  I am in the process already of planning our Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas parties.  If any of you guys have an awesome party ideas, please send them my way.

Love to all of you guys for following along on my random journeys.  Hope all of you are having a super blessed week:)

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Setting New Intention

So I have a new focus for the blog for the time being.  I am going to journal about my weight loss goals.  I started out this blog with a goal of losing some weight, but then abandoned it.  I was telling myself that it just wasn’t going to happen.  Be happy with where you are.  You aren’t fat.  And some of that is true.  I’m not “fat”.  I am also not where I want to be.  I think I was lying to myself though.  I really do want to drop some weight and by denying that and was not being authentic.  I think am afraid that wanting to lose weight when I am not “overweight” will seem vain.  I don’t really think that I am vain.  I just the strength that I feel on the inside to be reflected on the outside.   Another idea that has been holding me back is the thought that it just won’t happen.  I have this notion that my body doesn’t work like other people’s bodies.  I have been eating primarily paleo for about a year and a half and I have slowly and steadily gained 15 pounds.  Yes I am working out and there is some muscle, but not 15 pounds of it.  I get really tired of hearing that.  I am not only gaining pounds, I am gaining inches.  Everyone at CrossFit who goes paleo seems to have this huge body transformation, but not me.  There is something involved in the diet that doesn’t agree with me.  It is like my body is holding on to the fat because it thinks it will need it.  I have to some how convince it to let go.  I don’t want to abandon paleo altogether because I really do believe in the science behind it.  I am, however, going to have to find some way to modify it.

This all started with some progress/fitness pictures my husband took of me last night.  We had just worked out and  I felt strong, so I told him to take a few pics from angles I have a hard time doing myself.  Well, when I looked at them, I had a nervous breakdown.  In my mind, I feel slim and strong.  But pictures and my pants beg to differ.  That is the reason I have decided to go back to the scale for a while.  I am fully aware that it does not tell the whole picture, but I need something concrete to help me move in the right direction.  There is a puzzle piece I am missing and I am going to need all my tools to figure it out.  I don’t know what my end goal is as far as weight.  My body has changed.  It has put on some muscle.  I know that today’s weight of 128 pounds is not ok.  I am going to evaluate 1 pound at a time and see how I feel at that weight.  My husband has agreed to sit and pray with me everyday about this intention and about letting go of the pounds and the negative thoughts about my body.

He says he can feel my energy shifting and that change is coming.  I think he is right.  I will keep you all posted.



Catching Up

Ok, so I know I have been remiss about posting over the past week.  I expect all of you to forgive me:))  Just as everyone else on the planet, I have been crazy busy.  I am also trying to decide where I want to take this blog.  I feel like I may have outgrown the current format.  I still want to document where I am going, especially with my health and fitness journey, but it make take me a while to find a new groove, so hang with me, will ya?

My sleeping habits have been all over the map since my last post.  A couple of nights of no sleep, a few nights of deep dreamless sleep, a night of truly erotic dreams (gasp!) and then one dream where Jesus came to me.  I know, weird. FYI, Jesus didn’t speak to me this time, He just comforted me when I lost my daughter in the dream.  Still, it was the first time I had seen Jesus (asleep or awake) and it was pretty cool.  Not sure if the image was based on reality or  my own personal idea of Jesus’ appearance, but either way it was magical.

I have been working out consistently since my last post.  CrossFit, running, Zumba and Bodyrock.  I am improving upon my run time, slowly but surely.  My last 3 mile run was 29:24.  CrossFit has started this new Levels testing.  We had the tests for achieving Level 1 today and I made it!  Yeah me!  I don’t have my sheet in front of me but I think I can remember most of it.

1. 500 unbroken jump ropes

2. 20 unbroken box jumps (20 inches)

3. 15 unbroken thrusters (55 pounds)

4. 80 air squats in 2 minutes

5. 60 sit ups in 2 minutes

6. 20 burpees in 1 minute

7. 400 meter run 1:55 (finished mine in 1:35)

8. 15 unbroken push press ( 55 pounds)

I failed with the wall balls, which was 15 unbroken wall balls with a 14 pound ball.  I only got 7.  Since we only had to pass 8 item I was still good.  I also did 3 consecutive pull ups without a band so that was big stuff for me.

I went to a new accupucturist last week.  It was interesting and I loved my time spent on the table.  I find those needles totally relaxing.  Very zen.  However, after my first treatment my hair started falling out in clumps.  Small clumps, but clumps none the less.  Very strange.  I don’t think I am going back right away.  Also, I am out of money.

Other health news, I have spoken on here before about the state of my thyroid.  The last time it was tested, it was at 5.9.  Much too high, and in need of medication according to my doctor.  Of course, I refused medication and told her I wanted to work on it on my own first.  She is gracious and lovely and knows that I never do anything she says, so she said fine.  Come back in 3 months and let’s at least make sure it isn’t getting worse.  I went back last Friday and got the test.  My results came in today and my numbers was 2.274, a huge success.  The normal range is 0.35-5.50.  I still think it needs to come down a little more, but this is huge progress.  It does however leave me wondering why I haven’t dropped some of this weight and why my hair is still falling out???  Maybe with a little more time that will improve.  I’ll keep you posted.
The food around here has been good, but pretty standard for us.  I did make a new chicken nugget recipe called Fool’s Gold from Eat Like a Dinosaur tonight and the kids loved it.  Finally.  Most of my recipes lately have left my boys going to bed hungry.

Fool’s Gold Chicken Nuggets

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